you, who never

[feredar]

Story: you, who never
Year: 989
Characters: Kellom
Warnings: References to war/violence and defection
Notes: This takes place immediately after section 2 of The Other Side.


i don't understand it.
you, who never--who never stood for anything, who never...
i just don't understand.

they found you, bleeding--
you, who never cared enough to make any sort of sacrifice--
you were bleeding, and andrell gone.

we woke to find him gone, and
you, who never thought of anything but your own pleasure,
a fallen sentry, in the dust.

help me grasp it, little brother--
you, who never did a thing but watch, and laugh, and waste your days
and he...you know,

i always thought he was the best of us.
you, who never gave a damn, and i--well, i...
i was wrong. how could i be so wrong?

you spilled your blood for us.
you, who never spilled any other's, never fought for anything worth fighting for...
you could have died for us.

and even if you failed, and he escaped,
you, who never paid a scrap of mind--
you tried, and suddenly i realize, that

you, who never showed a spark of courage,
you, who never showed a trace of promise,
you, who never showed a hint of worth,

restored my faith in all of us today.