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Habibati
Story: Habibati
Year: 986 FY, 987 FY, 990 FY, 994 FY, 996 FY, 1030 FY
Characters: Nolani, Lonura
Warnings: Implied sex and adultery
Notes: The title is one possible transliteration of the Arabic word "حبيبتي," meaning "my (female) beloved." ("حبيبي" would be the speaker's male beloved.) It can also be translated as 'habibti.' I chose this particular transliteration for the number of letters/songs.
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1. Life Less Ordinary (Carbon Leaf)
Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
My face had said too much
Before our hands could even touch
To greet a 'hello'
(So much for going slow...)
Year: 986 FY, 987 FY, 990 FY, 994 FY, 996 FY, 1030 FY
Characters: Nolani, Lonura
Warnings: Implied sex and adultery
Notes: The title is one possible transliteration of the Arabic word "حبيبتي," meaning "my (female) beloved." ("حبيبي" would be the speaker's male beloved.) It can also be translated as 'habibti.' I chose this particular transliteration for the number of letters/songs.
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1. Life Less Ordinary (Carbon Leaf)
Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
My face had said too much
Before our hands could even touch
To greet a 'hello'
(So much for going slow...)
How she had managed to stumble across this kind of luck was an utter mystery to Lonura. But she was nearly a month in as the Princess--as Nolani's--favorite, and even as focused as she was on worrying about her little brother, Nolani still wanted her.
If things weren't entirely perfect--well, no relationship was perfect. And things were a little more daunting and daring, moving a little faster than Lonura would have expected or thought she could. But, as wary as Lonura was of adventure, of reaching too far and falling too hard...
Loving Nolani was an adventure well worth having.
2. Your Song (Elton John/Moulin Rouge!)
But the sun's been quite kind
While I wrote this song.
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on.
If things weren't entirely perfect--well, no relationship was perfect. And things were a little more daunting and daring, moving a little faster than Lonura would have expected or thought she could. But, as wary as Lonura was of adventure, of reaching too far and falling too hard...
Loving Nolani was an adventure well worth having.
But the sun's been quite kind
While I wrote this song.
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on.
As the weeks passed and stretched into months, as Lonura met her lover's mother and somehow, miraculously passed inspection, she began to hope. Hope that she would be different from all the others, somehow, that Nolani wouldn't break things off and find someone knew. Her breakups were always gentle, or so Lonura had gathered from Nolani's former favorites that she'd met, but still...
It was perhaps foolish, since she was still in the last gasp of her wildfire years, and she didn't have any family or fortune to offer her, but Lonura knew that she would never love anyone else.
3. I Knew I Loved You (Savage Garden)
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
It was perhaps foolish, since she was still in the last gasp of her wildfire years, and she didn't have any family or fortune to offer her, but Lonura knew that she would never love anyone else.
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
Basking sleepily, Nolani smiled down at her Lonura. Strange, but she had never allowed herself to dream of a forever love. Given the fact that her mother would likely arrange a sensible dynastic match for her, though, even if she had daydreamed, she would have imagined a man. It was just so much simpler.
And yet...
If she had, she didn't think she could have imagined someone as right as Lonura. Sensible, guarded Lonura, with her startling blue-grey eyes, with her soft skin and her long, calloused fingers...
She wouldn't dare to dream perfection. Especially now that she'd found it.
4. Take Me or Leave Me (RENT)
That's it
The straw that breaks my back.
I quit
Unless you take it back
5. What if I Stay (Melanie C)
What if I go?
What if I leave?
What if I show you how you're breaking me?
And I know, whatever I say I'll still be thinking
What if I stay?
6. Need You Now (Lady Antebellum/Cast of Glee)
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
7. Fields of Gold (Sting/Mary Black)
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
8. For the Longest Time (Billy Joel)
I don't care what consequence it brings.
I have been a fool for lesser things.
I want you so bad.
I think you ought to know that I intend to
Hold you for the longest time.
And yet...
If she had, she didn't think she could have imagined someone as right as Lonura. Sensible, guarded Lonura, with her startling blue-grey eyes, with her soft skin and her long, calloused fingers...
She wouldn't dare to dream perfection. Especially now that she'd found it.
That's it
The straw that breaks my back.
I quit
Unless you take it back
It wasn't fair.
She just wouldn't listen.
Didn't she know how hard this was?
Didn't she understand how much this hurt to say? How much this hurt to do?
Didn't she even care?
All she was thinking about was her own heart, her own feelings.
Selfish.
Thoughtless.
Cruel.
Heartbreaking.
Why wouldn't she understand how much worse this is from the other side?
So much time, wasted.
So much love, lost.
All their dreams of the future, vanished in a heated instant.
They stare at each other across a widening gulf and turn and walk in separate directions without another word.
She just wouldn't listen.
Didn't she know how hard this was?
Didn't she understand how much this hurt to say? How much this hurt to do?
Didn't she even care?
All she was thinking about was her own heart, her own feelings.
Selfish.
Thoughtless.
Cruel.
Heartbreaking.
Why wouldn't she understand how much worse this is from the other side?
So much time, wasted.
So much love, lost.
All their dreams of the future, vanished in a heated instant.
They stare at each other across a widening gulf and turn and walk in separate directions without another word.
What if I go?
What if I leave?
What if I show you how you're breaking me?
And I know, whatever I say I'll still be thinking
What if I stay?
Being alone like this was the worst pain she thought she'd ever known.
It was easier, Nolani thought, to deal with the empty place in her heart where Lonura used to be when she was at her husband's court. At least there were no reminders there, rubbing salt in the wounds.
Harder to be at home, to pass her in the hallways, remembering her hands tangled in her hair, and...
She'd promised Andrell she wouldn't risk the succession, which meant no male favorites, and she didn't want a few weeks of fun with another woman.
She wanted forever with Lonura.
It was easier, Nolani thought, to deal with the empty place in her heart where Lonura used to be when she was at her husband's court. At least there were no reminders there, rubbing salt in the wounds.
Harder to be at home, to pass her in the hallways, remembering her hands tangled in her hair, and...
She'd promised Andrell she wouldn't risk the succession, which meant no male favorites, and she didn't want a few weeks of fun with another woman.
She wanted forever with Lonura.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
All she could think about was Nolani, and she became more and more convinced that she'd made a terrible mistake.
She should leave court. She knew she should. Because seeing Nolani--seeing the Princess--walking the halls, talking with her sister or father, laughing...
It made an already hellish situation worse.
And yet...she couldn't. She couldn't even count anymore the times she'd packed up, intending to go away, far away, even back to the mountains. But she lived for those brief glimpses, for the fodder for her daydreams of what could have been.
If only she hadn't thrown it all away.
She should leave court. She knew she should. Because seeing Nolani--seeing the Princess--walking the halls, talking with her sister or father, laughing...
It made an already hellish situation worse.
And yet...she couldn't. She couldn't even count anymore the times she'd packed up, intending to go away, far away, even back to the mountains. But she lived for those brief glimpses, for the fodder for her daydreams of what could have been.
If only she hadn't thrown it all away.
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
There was no way to quantify the feeling.
She wanted her back.
Despite everything, despite all the cruel words they'd flung in each other's direction...maybe there was still hope.
That first night, they stood watching each other in the dim light of the candles, alone. The same bodies, with only minor changes from the years that had passed.
Their fingers twined together, and they kissed softly, and while they didn't quite fall back into the same rhythm they'd found before, they spent the whole night together, exploring, relearning each other.
And convincing themselves that this wasn't all a dream.
She wanted her back.
Despite everything, despite all the cruel words they'd flung in each other's direction...maybe there was still hope.
That first night, they stood watching each other in the dim light of the candles, alone. The same bodies, with only minor changes from the years that had passed.
Their fingers twined together, and they kissed softly, and while they didn't quite fall back into the same rhythm they'd found before, they spent the whole night together, exploring, relearning each other.
And convincing themselves that this wasn't all a dream.
I don't care what consequence it brings.
I have been a fool for lesser things.
I want you so bad.
I think you ought to know that I intend to
Hold you for the longest time.
If they'd had a rocky road, they still reached the end together.
Nolani sat on a bench in the palace garden, watching Lonura play with Istell's daughter Riva, both of them giggling. Lonura's hair, caught in a net in the Feredar fashion, shone softly in the sun, and seemed the same grey as her eyes.
Beautiful.
After all these years, in the twilight of their lives, they still loved each other.
Nolani rose and went to kiss the side of her beloved's neck.
For all the pain they'd left behind, she was almost positive that her current life was perfect.
Nolani sat on a bench in the palace garden, watching Lonura play with Istell's daughter Riva, both of them giggling. Lonura's hair, caught in a net in the Feredar fashion, shone softly in the sun, and seemed the same grey as her eyes.
Beautiful.
After all these years, in the twilight of their lives, they still loved each other.
Nolani rose and went to kiss the side of her beloved's neck.
For all the pain they'd left behind, she was almost positive that her current life was perfect.