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feredarStory: Family
Characters: Tova
Warnings: References to adultery
I think what most people fail to realize is that I don't want more than what I have. True, I'm not about to say no to any of the perks of my position. But I don't want to be the King's wife. I don't want to unseat the Queen--she is an amazing woman, far more suited to the position than I am. All I want is to raise my daughter--and help raise her brother--and love my King.
I get along better with Lonura than with Nolani--I think because of our similar positions, and our similar motivations. Both of us just want...we want to make our lovers happy, and be with them, and help raise the children.
It helps, I think, that we have each other. We can talk about the strain that being the outsider puts on us, even in our arrangement, which is ideal, where all of us are friends and no one is getting more or less than they expect. We can talk about our kingdoms, and our plans for the future, and sometimes even get slightly inebriated and play the what-if game, imagining what our lives with our lovers would be if it were only us, only in pairs.
But, in truth, I think we're happier, all four of us, just as we are. Andrell has a beloved friend and brilliant political partner in his wife, and Kiva has a brother, and Lonura and I have our roles in the background--there to love, without the baggage that comes from being King and Queen. And we wouldn't be friends, if not for them. And I like having her as my friend.
So, this is what we built, the King, his wife, her lover, and me: it may not be typical, and the fact that I call it ideal certainly would raise eyebrows were I to do it in front of people, but...we built a family. And even if there are times when I'm a little bit jealous, when I wish I could have my beloved all to myself...I wouldn't trade my family for the world.
Characters: Tova
Warnings: References to adultery
I think what most people fail to realize is that I don't want more than what I have. True, I'm not about to say no to any of the perks of my position. But I don't want to be the King's wife. I don't want to unseat the Queen--she is an amazing woman, far more suited to the position than I am. All I want is to raise my daughter--and help raise her brother--and love my King.
I get along better with Lonura than with Nolani--I think because of our similar positions, and our similar motivations. Both of us just want...we want to make our lovers happy, and be with them, and help raise the children.
It helps, I think, that we have each other. We can talk about the strain that being the outsider puts on us, even in our arrangement, which is ideal, where all of us are friends and no one is getting more or less than they expect. We can talk about our kingdoms, and our plans for the future, and sometimes even get slightly inebriated and play the what-if game, imagining what our lives with our lovers would be if it were only us, only in pairs.
But, in truth, I think we're happier, all four of us, just as we are. Andrell has a beloved friend and brilliant political partner in his wife, and Kiva has a brother, and Lonura and I have our roles in the background--there to love, without the baggage that comes from being King and Queen. And we wouldn't be friends, if not for them. And I like having her as my friend.
So, this is what we built, the King, his wife, her lover, and me: it may not be typical, and the fact that I call it ideal certainly would raise eyebrows were I to do it in front of people, but...we built a family. And even if there are times when I'm a little bit jealous, when I wish I could have my beloved all to myself...I wouldn't trade my family for the world.